I found this quote:
A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for”
She makes love stronger - my love for her is just overwhelming, but so is my love for my other grand child, Kev, as I relive his babyhood; for our special son-in-law, Ray and his parents, Rita and Graham as they just gaze at her in awe; for Sarah, as I remember what it was like being a first time Mom - nervous and unsure and so aware of the responsibility of raising her; and especially my love for Nicky - my baby with her baby. I admire her so much as she grits her teeth and lets Emily latch on to her sore nipples, I feel so helpless when she is sad and anxious, I feel so sad when she cries because we are going home and won't see Em growing up, I feel so warm when she kisses us both when I'm holding Em and whispers to her "You have the best granny and grampa." I feel like we are living in a bubble of love - and she is the centre of it all.
She makes the days shorter - there is lots to do, but lots of each day is spent looking at her, holding her, tickling her, loving her. She is an absolute time-waster - and it's wonderful. But when I can tear myself away from her, I'm busy cooking so Nic won't have to when we go home, baking so she has nutritious snacks, washing the mounds of washing Em creates each day - pee, poo and puke means a lot of clothes are used!
She makes the nights longer - right now we are having special "Granny and Grampa Time" - Nic and Ray go to bed about 9.30 and we get to hold, watch and love Emily till her middle of the night feed. Delicious! Pete is having his turn at the moment and then I will have mine when he goes to shower. But it means we go to bed later and sometimes get up earlier if Nic needs to sleep. The nights are drawing in - and our older bodies are adjusting to sleeping at different times and with one ear open.
She makes the bankroll smaller - we would buy things for her every time we go to the shop - I want to buy every cute outfit I can see at Farmers, Pumpkin Patch, JK Kids .... you name it, I want to buy it. But even more than that, we need to save so we can travel to new Zealand often to see her. Nic said the other night that as soon as she is big enough to travel alone, they will send her to visit us - because 1 ticket will be more affordable. We know Nic and Ray did the right thing settling in Tauranga, but being long distance grandparents is the downside.
She makes the home happier - seeing ray's face as he comes in from school and swoops his beloved daughter up, reminds me of how Pete would do exactly the same when Sarah and Nic were tiny. The home revolves around a tiny, quiet (for the moment) little girl but it is a home that sings with happiness.
She makes clothes shabbier - well, none of us really have time to worry too much about how we look, but my goodness, does she have an un-shabby wardrobe. Beautiful clothes - all types and styles. She is a real fashion plate - but even more beautiful when she's naked on her mat or in her bath.
She makes the past forgotten and the future worth living for - our beautiful Emily seems to wipe us clean and give us great hope for the future.
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